goodbye january

Say goodbye january and hello to febuary. 2010 will be a better year I guess. I had a really great birthday and it was definitely a blast. One of the most memorable event I should say. Just so so so many pictures still yet to be uploaded. I love my blackberry bold 9700. Im not a very gadget person but yea i love this phone but not as much as loving my gfs. hahaha! Not to forget how much I love my prada bag....

Well, this year I had my first foot massage at genting. First time in genting... can you imagine and im not exaggerating. My dad finally allowed me to take a trip to m'sia. He always rants that its dangerous and all... blah blah blah... Yeah looking forward for more holidays! My foot massage was a lil awkward as i kept giggling and laughing. It tickles somehow but after a while I got the hang of it. Feels quite good actually. Genting was fun! It was my first time riding the rollercoaster so many times and usually I dont even dare to ride one. haha!

This year I think I've became more confident and im aint that 'coward'any longer. Lols! Got to interview people from all walks of life and I realised many things. Some people could be very weird indeed. Like what the hell are they thinking when they come interviews~ Im happy leading a simple and happy life. Last year was a pretty bad year for me. Many ups and downs. I know life is just like a rollercoaster. I had never felt that much agony for like 16 years of my life. But at least i've experience such stuffs so I wont be feeling that bad once it hits me again. The saying '' once bitten twice shy''.

As time goes by, or should I say as years goes by many things changes but at least it has changed for the better. In this life, the good that happened to me are definitely uncountable. That goes the same for the bad. I cant display them and start to count. I’ll miss out most of the stuff from here and also there. As believed, nothing lasts forever. The good stuff that seems too good to be true, it is. The bad stuff that seems like it’ll never go away, it will. I refer to that as the cycle of life and its happenings. I’ll never forget what a good friend enlightened me with, “This too shall pass” when I was a ignorant teenager, to the extent of considering tattooing that on me. I do not ask for much. I just ask to be carefree, healthy, and happy.

I know I've to grow up. Im no longer that girl I once was. I used to have everything and a really great life like everyone would want. But those evil people had ruin it and my poor dad had to suffer like this when im in my teenage years. No one understands my life and what had happened. Not even my close friends and bf does. I like to keep it to myself and sometimes me and my brother would rant about it. Its very complicated but at least for now im happy. Its not like i wanna be lazy but somehow since young im pretty used to it.

Memory kinda failed me as to update of activities of what happened after the last post i posted. i remembered abit of shopping, discovering the cutest hedgehog and many many movies. Gosh! I've just realised my bf and I had been together for 3 years! How time flies...

Pictures in the next post...........

Memorable

I had a great BIRTHDAY~
The day that i'll never forget.
Im so happy.
Pictures will be up another day (:
Thank u everyone!
LOVE!

counting down...

Counting down to 11 more days...
Its my BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!
But i cant invite a whole lot of ppl.
U know hotel and its blah blah blah...

But yea im looking forward to it.
(:

new hairdoooooo!

I got my hair done ytd.
So now it isnt sooooo thck.
Its a lil bit shorter than usual and curly.
Hahahaha.
I had a great wkend last week,

Fri- Flee, sushi and sheesha
with pat,jun xiong, viona and valerie

Sat- dinner, prawning
with sera, wx, vanny, shang zhi, raymond

Sun- Saloon, bugis, town, coffee club
with the usual co.

I cant upload pictures yet cause i didnt took any pics with my cam.
Gonna shop for x'mas presents later.... (:

Sometimes....

I've got pictures still yet to be uploaded!
Attended Ling's POP.
Bet he'll nvr forgot that very day.

I believe what goes around comes around.
I believe everything happens for a reason.
I believe all u need is time to heal.
I believe no matter what happens life still have to go on.

People change so u can learn to let go.
People leave and people come.
People wrong doings occur so that u could appreciate when they are right.
People lie so that u learn to trust no one, but yourself.
People live and people die.

What is love actually.....
Maybe Im still too young to understand whats the real meaning of it.
But not to say I've gone through many ups n downs with love.
Believe that love had made a great impact on all of us, GIRLS especially.
How many people had eventually turned to beast?
Sometimes you just dont understand... and maybe u jus dont understand at all....

Love is the scars on your knees.
It scars your heart and your soul as well.
The left over food in the refrigarator?
The pain u felt and inflict.
The sweet nothingness whuch flutters from ur lover's mouth.
The birds chirping in the morning.
A half-complete cigarette.
Diet coke which fizzles on your tongue.
The colourful rainbow like cupcakes.
The battered package u recieved.
The sound of the wind escaping through a small gap in ur window.
The chipped red varnish on ur fingernails.
Your precious musical box.
Your very first pair of shoes.
The scent of ur damp hair.
The music playing on and on.
The bugglebum stuck under the desk.
The night you waited for ur tooth fairy to come.
The kisses u blow.
The clothes u wear.
6am morning jog.
The clock strikes 12.
Your sensitive teeth.
The tingly feeling you get when u get touched.
The tangles on ur hair.
Sleepless nights.
Undeserve success and recognition.
Telling lies and not getting caught.
Blacking out from consuming too much alcohol.
Pain over excessive dancing.
Being desired by multiple parties.
Watching the ppl ard u.
Watching ppl fucking up ard u.
Screaming out of ur window in the night.
Flaming ur lover's ex.
Make-up sex.
smudged eye liner and mascara.
Disheveled hair and smeared lipstick.
Little children.
Silence.
Trees, Flowers.
Photosynthesis.
Growth.
Development.

Love is YOU. I and a careless mixture of everything we worry about every now and then