Another day

It was a sudden rush of emotions yesterday. But it was all worth while doing so as it made me felt whole lot better. I actually LOVE my daddy, i always will. I didnt mean it.

Traumatised

Oh gosh. Today was my worse experience ever. Sigh! I think my day today was terrible and outrageous. Nothing i mean really NOTHING seems to goes well for me today. Its really like one whole day till night. Maybe only in the morning was pretty fine but when i started to go out it seem to be arghs. . .

I was bloody traumatised and stoned for a couple of minutes. It happened right before my eyes. Hope wen and yiling are alright! damn it! Luckily ren came down to town. If not i really dont know what to do as i just couldnt leave the place like that. Like what if they called me and i go already? Its just me and myself who i can depend on. I really dont know whats the consequesces of this type of situation.

Ren had dinner with me. While heading up far east we saw adrian and his friend. Lols. he was shocked! After that she had suggested to head to amk fountain to slack as she said it would be more convenient for us to head home and nearer(cheaper). So yahs im fine with anything so we headed there. BUT!!! when she informed her bf she was at amk he said he was there too and he wanted to meet her and pass ciggs! Then the yankering of fetching her home goes on and on. So i just said well in that case three of us go home. So yahs we did. I know its a good thing that he got to fetch her home but we came amk for nothing in fact. Sheesh. But im not mad.(:

Sometimes i begin to dislike my daddy. Im beginning to miss my mum alot. He dosent seem that understanding and all already. I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING. Im not gonna say a single word to him and just let it stab right through me. Silence kills. Maybe one fine day when i coudnt take it anymore i would secretly fly back and look for my mum. I miss her love and the way she tuck me in to bed at night. Now i dont even feel like going home anymore. I just wanna cry out loud at times but i coudnt do it. Sometimes its all numb in me. I just need a shoulder to lean on.

For gods sake why am i getting all this unneccessary treatment when i did nothing wrong from pple. Maybe it is parts and parcels of life. However, i can just fall apart in any time. Im feeling moodless and exams are approaching.

I used to think life was great but for now i dont really know. I coudnt understand how the world is actually like. I dont know! It dosent pay to be nice or kind. But i have got to say thanks to my bf, xgeppy, wen n ren who were always there for me. Much love!

Guess what? I've done a lil notes. Well its not that much. I get distracted by the surroundings around me. How absurd could it get. Thats why i always needed someone right beside me to motivate me. But boohoo~ there was no one to motivate me today i can like just stare into space for like half an hour! This is insanity i know. Time passes kinda fast this way though. Im like wasting
my precious time away.

Arghs! i thought in the night i could catch a movie or something as yahs it had been a so called long day for me. wahaha! Because i hav been facing the bloody wall for like 123456789 hours. !@#$%^% Nobody can understand what im feeling.

Sometimes i think that i shall no longer trust anyone. Everyone seems to change literally. There is specificly noone but just yourself. What if one day i wake up and everything changes? or when suddenly everything disappears? Thats really creepy i should say. Or mayb i should start talking to myself? nahs~ its madness. How i wished that i have some super duper powers!

Oh wells, i've got to accompany wen tmr for her check up and heading some where nice to chill and all after that. Im a horrble drinker. I seem to be getting worse in it. So yahs better no drinks for me girl. If not u will sure regret. haa!

It's every little thing you do,that makes me fall in love with you,there isn't a way that I can show you,ever since I've came to know you,it's every little things,that makes me wanna feel this,there's not a thing that I can point to,cause it's every little thing you do.(:

Day out with classmates (:

Friday the 27th was my last day of school. So we decided to have a class outing. We went to marina as chienting wanted to get her mp3 fixed and all. After that we headed to suntec and walked around. Litarally, we catch a movie at cathay(douby ghaut) Actually wanted to catch halloween but one of us was still underage so yahs we ended up watching the seeker. The movie story line wasnt that interesting and the story line seems to be a lil common and all. Not the sort of movie that i'll give 5/5 or 4/5. Anyway, that day pat looked so feminine! Surprisingly, that was her first time wearing dress in fact! Thanks for the day guys! especially pearly, patricia, hui xan and chienting(: Im sorry that i didnt ate dinner with u girls and all.

In the night i've got to part with them as i got to accompany karen. After that wen came along and brought over another friend and all of us headed to chips. They were having some halloween mini party over there. We ordered a jug of hippie drink~ After that i got reall nausous. I have got no idea why did that happen and began to puke despite drinking a lilttle only. My head was spinning. This feeling really sucks. It was really a long day for me. When we alight the cab poor darl hav to carry me and he was carrying all the stuffs. I coudnt get up even to shower and poor darl have to be troubled by me this weakling. Im sorry about it and thanks baby! i love u!

Halloween is approaching! Happy halloween people! (:

Tomorrow is my last day of school. I have already completed six modules and two more to go. Im so lucky that i have passed everything despite always skipping school. Im gonna miss my classmates. Next year i'll definitely continue my advance diploma. This time round i would be more serious. Im gonna look for a job after my exams. By just relaying on pocket money sucks. Darling should know. lols! Everyone is working except me. Having to have some extra money would be better. Its time for me to be more independent and all.

Its so sad that i knew hui xuan, chienting, jules and other more when sch is ending. I should learn how to be more socialble and open up to ppl more. Now i got to see them lesser and its ending! Thanks girls for the fun and laughter this few days(: Lets camwhore tomorrow! I just love girlfriends!

i love u like a million of buffalossss!

What a day~

Oh well~ This morning i've been dragging myself out of bed. Sseeing love sleeping so soundly just makes me wanna give him a good spanking! haa! The weather was perfectly good for sleeping. It was so tempting just to get back to sleep. Anyway, i was doing my project half way and i was summon to stop whatever i am doing and went to catch a movie at hub with the rest. We watched superbad. Well its overall was kinda lame, quite funny and almost the entire movie was about dicks and all. I know it sounds like omg but its true. lols. Needless to say i slept late yesterday as i was finishing my project. I just dont know why that i always get to do my projects last minute. I think last minute work makes u intense and so u'll start working on it deliberately. Haa!

Reached school to print our project with the rest but ended up printing the different file. Waste my money and all. It was troublesome as i have to amend it over and over. Sorry pat and pearl for the trouble waiting. I appreciate it. (: The number of pages of my project was extremely more then the rest of my classmates. I was so afraid that the lecturer would not accept it but in the end luckily he did. If not im so scewed up with all those hassles and all. In the end poor sera coudnt play maple as i was using it to do my project. Sorry chubchub(: I know u're a kind soul!

I've been staying home for the whole day today. I dont usually like staying home but today was acceptional. haa! Something bad happen to the guys. I hope they are fine. Especially darling! Things are getting way out of hand. I just dont understand why pple do this. This harsh cruel and malicious world. Anyway, we dont expect it to happen.

For the whole day i've been editting my blog. I just want a plain and simple one. Tada and finally all done. This song in my blog is kinda nice(:

I hope love is alright. . .!! Its hard to decipher things sometimes. I've have been dreading to go to school this few days. Which turn out that i only attended class for like 3 days? I know its like ridiculous so i told myself to go to school for the last two more weeks. Needless to say that i'll be finishing my diploma this month already.

i hope u're really alright. sigh~

Those lovely moments that would never make u stop smiling<3

im in love with u<3

this is taken naturally!! haa!

its been kinda long since the both of us went out<3> never stop loving u!

thats pretty eeky. lols<3

wahaha. having fun in the mrt<3>3rd attempt and tada!! (:

heading to esplanade. . .

toys 'r' us is fun. Hello im a witch>.<
and he is ehhs some swordsman? i dont know! haa


climbing up the ladder.. lalala.


Oh no. for goodness sake!

can u spot me?

im sucha good photographer! (: credits to me! <3> sheesh! there's a spider!! crdits to him also nahs. lols

do not touch still touch!! eyes something wrong! haa

somtimes geeks are (:

thats my pretty boyf<3>his meal

my meal!

red cherry juice and mango yoghurt drink!

getting the first taste of it~

cute cupcakes!

its so mini n cute cupcakes!

Thanks darl for the adorable lil cupcakes(:
Ohh arnt u falling in love with it?

some radoms stuffs i made for him. i love u(:

taken quite long ago~ see our bangs. . .

dearest sera and myself<3 haa! shes adorable!

weee. shades!

cheese(:

wednesday (17oct)
We celebrated our 5th month anniversary<3
It was suppose to be ytd actually.
Thanks for everything honey i LOVE YOU.
We started getting crazy in the train and took many pics(:
We headed to marina and wanted to catch a movie but there were no time slots available.
So we went off to suntec but it was worst. lols.
We visited toys 'r' us and i was posing as a wivh and he was posing as a swords man i think! lol After that we decided not to catch a movie and went food hunting!
Finally, we settled down at this turkish restaurant.
The food was not that sumptuous but it was still nice(:
After that we felt like indulging ourselves for some ice cream and so we head off to esplanade. But by the time we reached there it was too late.
We got distracted by the exibitions and so we started to camwhore! wahaha.
We chill by the river bank and it seems really relaxing and all(:
I love u loads!

Thursday (18oct)
I stayed over at loves's place as it was late and i was lazy to head home.
It was a MAGNIFICIENT night.
We were all very vexed.In the afternoon epp came over to love's place and we went swimming and gym.
And 9pm went down to play pool.Love was kinda aw yesterday. wahaha!
I sweat like a pig i swear. lols.
I only ran like 25 minutes and i burn those calories.
Im happy that a lil fats are gone(:
Thaks darling for everything and dinner with my friends.
Im loving bes and epp alot(:
They are impt pple in my life.
Im so happy that until now i passes all my modules(:
i've got two Cs for the last two modules.

Somethings arose and its all my fault.
Im sorry my dear.
I know this time u wont let it go that easily.
You have your point for doing so.
But I understand and wont blame u for being mad and all.
I dont know what will i do without u when u're going overseas.
I fear for that moment to come. )':
But at the same time im happy because u got to experience other places and enjoy yourself.
Next few days till u're gone to overseas i promised not to upset u and show u that im trustworthy when u're away.
I will never do something which breaks your heart.
As i've experience it and never will i let u experience it.
Sometimes i wish that i just wont cry.