happiness vs sadness

Monday i was at darlings home and we had super late supper. There were simply filet o fish meal, mac wings meals, nine piece nuggets and one mac chicken burger~ After few minutes pass and wa la! We atually finish up everything!!! Holy shit. This was so far the best sin ever. After that we tried to get to sleep as next day i've got work and love's waking up early for his bak ku teh. haa! We sang monalisa! lols. and the usual tossing and turning. Till around 4 or 5 plus we get tu settle down. I actually didnt really get much sleep.

Met emm and headed to meet the rest~ namely: shiting, ruth, elizabeth,eli friend. The company we were working for was crystal cruise. I bet u guys never heard it before. It is a SIX STAR cruise and only teens and adults were allowed on board. Its a good experience though. Today was literally very free. Keep chatting, camwhored a lil, play bingo!, eat eat eat and slp! Yes i said sleep and its true. This 1o bucks per hour job is heaven.

After work met emm, elizabeth and her boyfriend. Headed to pizza hut and elizabeth boyfriend, zhen zhong was so kind enough to treat all of us (: Thanks alot!

Later met daddy as i coudnt stand the pain! My feet was hurting like mad. I dont get the point of wearing heels really. I always get this painful treatment once i wear heels. sheesh! Tmr definitely flats if not i think my feet would eventually die. haa!

Called mummy and i was so devastated ): poor bruno died today. Its basically because of old age. Last few days i was just telling mum that i wanna head back to visit there once more and see our bruno. But he didnt wait for me. I just cant describe the feeling. I had him since i was in grade three. I didnt get to see him get buried and all. I hate to say GOODBYE seriously. Im in a foul mood. Love's playing mahjong and he dosent know anything yet. sigh. I didnt expect i'll break down like the water farcet. arghs. Shit. i love u bruno. Anyway, jacky, bruno, jasper,spooky, sparky, whitey are love and they will always be remembered in my heart. Time really passes by real fast. . .

girls just wanna have fun

It was a fruitful day when three girls went gaga. Took a few pics from sy love's holga camera. Its so cool. I remembered last time i actually wanna get one. I should have got it last time. Plan to get a polaroid for now though or a fish eye. Its fun~


This was taken on wednesday. Poor sy love misses her boyfriend so much till she was quite moody throughout the day. But oh wells, we still enjoyed ourselves (: ps: sy dont worry ok we are here for u and u'll get over it. . . We headed to hong kong cafe for lunch. Oh gosh, our entire day was food. Sin alot. I've really gotta lose those pounds man. Anyway, we got to explore shev love school(ymca) it looks like a hotel and their canteen was like a cafe.

Evening we decided to chill at the balcony. Had a double chocolate cake, chicago cheese cake and a snowbell. We could just sit down for hours going on and on. Actually we wanna head to seah street but it was kinda late already so we just walk around in town instead. At the end of the day everyone was dead beat.

Oh gosh, actually today i should have gone to church because its GOOD FRIDAY. Im feeling so bad now. sheesh. . . Dear lord pls forgive me though i have sin alot, like not going to church and all. I think if my boyf reads this he would find me really lame. . . haa. I was once very devoted to church.

I woke up gasping for air, frantically i thought i was going to die. lols. I think its because of boredom thats why im feeling so dead! I kinda dislike the feeling of being left at home. Lucky cutie sera was here if not i think i'll drop dead.

Tomorrow gonna head out to do a lil' shopping (:
next saturday its booze and party time with dearest xgeppy love. . . .

I did a very stupid thing today. hahaha, freaking funny ok.
I love my fat pui bong. Faster reach home. I wanna snuggle up and bite u!!! gee

home sweet home

I have been going out for the past few days. So i've decided not to head out today. Its so tiring and finally yesterday i got to take my half month pay. All thanks to sy love. Been cracking my head over the blog skin and stuffs. At first the whole thing was like in a mess just because of my one click and ka poof the whole thing destroyed. But later i got to fix it and tada my new skin. . . haa! I like it altough its simple.

I have been lazing around at home the entire day. Next few days i have got to head down to MDIS to collect my diploma. Like finally~ After so long. . . You know people i miss the art days when i still do my paintings and stuffs. Holy marcaroni! I freaking miss it. I miss getting my uniform all stain with paint, my face and hands. So so fun!! But when i got home, I've got to face the music.Like when daddy is back home he would yell at me and i'll just stuck myself into the room and sob. Oh gosh~ im feeling like a kid. Its like giving myself a personal time out. haa

My art dream was gone when my brother enlighten me to take business instead. I was like this close to nafa but then i changed the route. Oh wells, most importantly i did not regret whatever i have done so far :D I reaslise that there is still lotsa moving awaiting for me to watch! Movie marathon i guess for this wkend. Haa.

Understanding love. . . I know how I felt when I was in love, Basically like right now in fact im in love. lols and I know that everything I have now. As at times the quarrels would be deadly. Sometimes I smile and say nothing, Because I know the love is pain. Honestly, its really difficult to say goodbye at times. I hate this word~ Goodbyes are never easy, especially if they are for eternity. Well maybe not for eternity for some. As they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder isnt it. It's heartbreaking i tell you. This is one of the reasons why i am afraid of letting people in at times, because people always leave.

So i've told myself if i dont have the person in heart no longer then i'll say goodbye. Daddy say maybe im goin back for a month or so then i have to say good bye to the people i love. How heartbreaking. . . Or even saying goodbye to your boyfriend when he goes army. Thats why i really hate goodbyes. I see my gfirlriends getting so upset over it. Another reason why it is that i hate goodbyes is because when i get back i always have to say goodbye to mum and the feeling back to s'pore really sucks.

Suddenly i felt like singing this song. . . .

''All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go'
Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet planeI don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say... ''

im missing the beach

Alright im in darl house rotting at this moment. Haa! Im like almost half dead. But soon in the night i will be meeting sy love~ Just to chill, slack and bitch. LOLS. I wanna annoy her with my loud loud laughter. I wonder why sometimes im so loud. haa! Well, yea i guess its just me? gee

I so wanna head to sentosa once more and cafe delmar! The feeling is just simply love.

Recieved a call this morning from one of my love(gf) and she said that we'll be working next tuesday, wednesday and thursday. Its like 10 bucks per hour. . . Its easy money as you could sit as well. Gosh~ im lucky. gee. Finally i got to earn some money.

Im still searching for those permanent kinda job. Most likely office job preferred. cause you know office hours are better. Any job to recommand anyone? If yes do inform me alright. (:


Oh yahs, i cant wait for tomorrow outing with sy and shev love! Haa! Bet it'll be tons fun. Its just great that we all have common stuffs to share. We get along and go gaga often. haa. Its a great feeling to get to know new ppl who are nice, who appreciates you and someone you could confront. And tomorrow not to forget i still have to take my half month pay at tampines. Dreadful journey. . .

Not to forget xgeppy, w and r <3

bed of roses

MONDAY woke up at 5 plus pm. I felt like i've been to wonderland and never coming back again. lols. I dont feel well today. I seem to be having a slight fever. Had my dinner and headed to the vet with sebas, sera n all. Poor spex had to get his injection. The microchip thingy was not like the normal injetion used as it was thick but luckily he did not cry. Strong spex and i love u.

Now im gonna catch top model. I shall have a good rest tommorrow.
So bye planet earth. . .
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Some pics which were not yet uploaded. . . .

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This pic reminds me of the bailey again! im in love with it so much~
Oh wells.........................
Girlfriends are great~
sy and shev are LOVE as well as w and r.

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where are u xgeppy?

Alright, really good bye planet earth! <3

show me some love

FRIDAY headed down to bugis to meet the rest and get my cam fixed! arghs. . . In the evening manage to catch 10000 BC . Wow, amazingly i find the movie great! Worth the catch. Im soon gonna catch step up 2! I bet it'll be a blast though. haa. Slack around and went home at surprisingly 7 plus am. Was really dead beat and all. Cococrunch(lols) sadly went home first as shes got work tmr and i manage to have a good chat with shev. Shes a nice girl in fact.

verdict : 4/5.

SATURDAY i woke up at 3 plus 4? Prepared and head to orchard hotel with sebas 's family and grandparents. The dinner was great. After dinner drove to centrepoint and spree around for a while. But almost all of the shops were closed already.















SUNDAY woke up real early to head to the beach! While the guys headed to east coast to prepare some bbq stuffs. Cafe delmar was love in fact. We even got approach by the staffs and ask us if we wanted to work over there. Its a chance why not? We drank bailey, snowball and sex on the beach. Bailey is super upupup. Haa! Its yummy and i love it. Even though it wasnt that sunny but i had a great time with her. I cant wait to hangout again with sy and shev!!! They were simply very nice girls and yes i'll treasure this. Thanks n love. Sometimes in life some good things may happen and i shall let the past be. Who knows the one who really cares are the present ones actually? Totally unseen and screened i've seen. gees.

Oh yahs. while we were in the bus there was this one man whom i'll never forget. It was like so OMG! I THINK HE IS SOME CRAZY MANIAC. lols. It was like so hilarious but we controlled! Shall not talk about it any further its scary. . . who would give their numbers to such people. Moreover, this type of people should never exist at all. PERIOD.

After all the tanning session and all meet sy in town and headed to east coast. We ate so much. lols. FATS! We had some girly talks and get to know more about each other. How wonderful isnt it? We stuck ourselves into the tents and they show their flexibility! wahaha!

alright this spells love.

Oh gosh, look at nana's J BIN. . . wahaha

Go ahead and just laugh out loud! LOLS!

peek a boo

beautiful thing called love .
sweetheart u're my best (:

mnm is love. . .

We were fooling around when boyfriend sebas was out cycling!
haa! sera actually use my eye liner, eyes shadow and all
She star being artistic by drawing on my eye.
It was a diaster though. LOUSY art! haa. . .
No pics taken because it looks scary! lols.
ps: sexy boxers girl! geeeeeee.

This lil boy here spexx is a clever boy.
I love to play with him!!!
woof woof!
n it licks all over. . . . haa

Some random shots at marina!
more to be uploaded next time. . .
because its yongs cam n she have not upload it.

This pic we were still alive and awake. . . haa

Here comes the booze and all. . .

mnm are love again. . .

a jug for me. . .

and a jug for you. . .

we were hot and red! haa

we were almost dead! gosh.

Look how red is she man. omgoodness! lol

ZOO pics and NIGHT SAFARI will be uploaded some other time. . . (:
Nights universe!
poof! n im off!